Saturday, August 23, 2008

Catch a breath…write a post.

Well it has been quite a while since I have posted anything on here, but I realized that it is a wonderful way to express thoughts in written format so here I am…and here we go again. In my spiritual walk with in life I realize that many things happen both good and bad, some understood some not understood, but through it all I realize that the Lord has a greater plan through it all. And here we stand on the threshold of something that bears the resemblance of a road traveled before. I find myself looking again to Pastor a Church.

If you know me and you actually read this you remember it was just a few years ago that I was out looking for Churches that I could candidate to be their Senior Pastor. What an experience, both good and bad, but now it is that time again. I know that God wants me to Pastor a Church and that the Lord has prepared me for such a time as this, but at this moment we are trying to candidate at the Church where I am currently serving as Youth Pastor. What a unique experience, because I actually know the people, have a heart for them, have loved them for years, and have a great vision of what the Lord could do, but at the same time I have to prepare myself for the fact that they may not want me as their Pastor. I know that may not seem weird, but for me it is kind of weird.

What makes it weird is what would happen next…last week as I met with a Pastor friend of mine he asked a very sensible question, “What will you do if they tell you no?” Now, I had this all figured out in my mind, but I guess I never really entertained the idea before or really pondered it. So as I ponder I wonder what will happen. My standard answer is, “well God is calling me to Pastor so I will go to where God wants me to Pastor, either in Galesburg or wherever he leads.” But the implications of that are what are really interesting. What if _____ What if _____ it is the What Ifs that get me sometimes. And as I ponder this thought I have one conclusion ______________ Yep that’s it…But I realize the Lord is control and I am looking forward to whatever He will do with us. I don’t doubt His calling or His leading during this time it is just the Blank I want filled in. Soon…soon.